13 January 2017, by We Are Family
Due to increasingly difficult behaviour in school - which is now very much spilling over into our home life - my partner and I have been reassessing our son and the behaviour we are facing and we have concluded that he does indeed suffer from Reactive attachment disorder (RAD). This has resulted in me thinking back over our adoption process and how we dealt with the information being presented to us, information which is now evidently appropriate and true. Yet information that at the time we could be somewhat dissmissive of - even after further research on the topics being raised.
On reflection I think it's fair to say that we were quite simply in denial and it is a denial that has continued well into placement.
Athough we could very quickly see that our son was troubled and that we were dealing with some very challenging behaviour, we put it down to anger brought about from the trauma he had suffered or from being removed from a secure, long term foster placement and it has taken us a good while to open ourselves up and to stop denying the full reality of our family,
And I am wondering if that denial is typical of many adopters? I think it is often a very difficult path that leads to adoption and for some adopters it is a last opportunity to become a parent. Consequently that desire to parent possibly overrides all else and whilst being processed I feel we could be subconsciously denyng anything which could get in the way of us becoming the family we so desperately want to be.
All new adopters are repeatedly and relentlessly warned by social services of the issues that the children in their care could have - or indeed are likely to have - and in many cases when it gets to the matching process there can be clear information about our potential children presented to us that I guess we allow ourselves to doubt. In theory there are no secrets and all the known facts are laid out before us - and indeed information about what could be unknown. This is all information that could possibly have most of us running for the hills, yet we don't run, we hold fast.
I remember clearly thinking 'but they are just kids and kids are kids', 'The social workers are making too much of this', 'they need to exaggerate, to present the worse case scenario', and more incredibly 'we can handle it' without truly knowing what it would be that we would need to handle.
In our case there was in fact a professional diagnoses (RAD for both our sons) that we were very willing to question because of factors that we felt discredited it - in our defence this did include our sons family finder and social worker saying that they felt the diagnoses to be 'surprising' and to be fair to them we do still feel that the diagnoses for our older son to be totally wrong.
I am not saying that we ignorantly blanked out the information put before us, I think we were just somewhat selective in how we allowed it to impact on us and our decision making. I think we were in denial.
I think it is fair to say that it is a rare adopter who can knowingly and willingly take on a physically disabled or a severely disturbed child, most of the rest of us may not be looking for 'perfection' when it comes to the children we chose, but in fact I am pretty sure we are hopeful of a child who will be physically and mentally healthy - and this is regardless of being told that it may be a rarity amongst adopted children nowadays.
As was the case for us, I think possibly those adopters who feel that they are willing to take on children with (what we see as manageable) issues, do so with a belief that the impact will be minimal and that all will be OK.
Not blindly - but hopefully.
On reflection I tthink that all of this denial is a wonderful thing, because without it I fear that so many of us would not be the families that we are.
Our children move in, we become a family and the love and the bond develops and grows. They become part of us They are our children and then whatever reality we are faced with, we deal with - as any parent would.
Just as the vast majority of birth parents would never turn away from their child if the child became ill or disabled or very challenging - neither do the vast majority of adopters.
We are there for our children, we learn to understand their problems, to understand their needs, we learn to be the parent we need to be.
We learn that it doesn't matter that they are not 'perfect' , they are ours and they come as they are and we are a family that is meant to be.
Don't get me wrong, we did not deny our son had issues, there was just an instinctive desire to 'play them down', regardless we still had to learn to parent therapeutically and to give him the special care he requires. The only difference now is that we have to acknowledge that it is likely to be a much longer road ahead of us than we thought we were on - and that is perfectly OK.
P.S. I am very aware that many reading this will not relate on any level and I stress that the blog is about my experience as an adopter and my assumption that it could also be true for many, many others.
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