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A day with Rosa

This blog follows on from ‘A Tribute to a Foster Mum’. Last week’s blog described only a fraction of what she means to us. In this post I will continue my tribute, and include her family. A pivotal point is the trust my husband and I place in her, that key piece of the puzzle that is Max’s life.

While Max lived with Rosa, he spent a lot of time with her close-knit family. Especially her mother and father, where he would often spend the night. But he also stayed with her sister and her family. They were all her back-up carers, and Max loved spending time with them. 

We have kept in regular contact with Rosa and her family. And so it was a natural progression to ask Rosa and her mum to do an evening of babysitting last month. Very thoughtfully, she pinged through a selfie of a cuddle on our sofa which Pierre and I got while we were out for dinner. They looked so in tune and so happy. They share something. And our hearts burst at the sight of it. It felt very good and right to leave them to themselves too. To have their own thing…

‘You have no idea how much it means for us to still be able to see Max.’ 

Well, that feeling is mutual.

Just last week, 18 months after Max left Rosa to come live with us, we upped the game, and let him he spent a whole day with her and her family. 

Max had a whale of a day. Jam-packed with people he had known when he was an infant. Blasts from the past. 

Rosa returned after supper with a very happy and super-stimulated boy. Loaded with a heap of small and big presents, and arms full of hand-me-down toys. It was clear that they had had a very special time. There had been dozens of hugs for Max, and playmates. Bags of attention, smiles, giggles, tickles, tossing up in the air, rugby, football and much much more. Rosa told stories of how happy everyone had been to see Max. She kept it a surprise to her nieces and nephews, and it paid off. They were moved to tears. Happy tears. Each one of them recognised him. At first sighting. From the back.

By the sounds of it, Max had been his most charming, fun-loving, cuddly, caring self that day.

Rosa said the only time Max wobbled was when she strapped him in the car seat of her car, got in the driver seat and turned the key. She looked in the rear mirror and saw a frightened little face. She quickly addressed it, turned around and talked to him about the day ahead, and how they were going to come back tonight. She put on some music and soon they were singing along. Later on, when she told him it was time to go home, he smiled brightly and was ready.

That night he went to sleep in his cot with a big smile on his face.

The boy who got out of his cot the next morning, however, was whining and very clingy. The sling came in very handy over the next few days. He spent the greater part of the day clued to my body. You could not have put a piece of paper between Max and me. And the day after, a Saturday, he did the same to my husband, when he wasn’t stuck to me. It was exhausting for us grown ups. So I wonder how it must have felt to him.

I was nervous that I had overstretched him. But now a few days later, all is back to normal. And he has learnt a new word: Home. We use it all the time. He signs it, when he says it. Making a pointed arch with both hands, by letting the finger tips of one hand touch the other. He beams when he says it: ‘Home!’

When we return from our daily business we now play ‘Where does Max live? Where do mummy, daddy and Max live?’ And he shouts ‘There! There!’ Points. And then scoots straight up to the front door. He knows where he lives. And that this is where we come back to, whenever we have been out. 

Nevertheless we needed to anchor him back into our family after his day with Rosa. He was only ten months when he left her, but those memories of being uprooted are evidently strong. 

Typically, I am still a little worried I did the wrong thing, but have decided to use the opportunity to strengthen our bond, and his sense of family and home. I prefer to use the episode constructively. And to let him head off with Rosa again at some future date. 

The future will hold similar situations, I am sure, where he will be upset and confused, and we need to reassure him of the stability of our family. Some will involve Rosa, some his birth family, and some may be prompted in other, unpredictable ways, I suspect.

I feel so strongly that we, as his parents, must make a concerted effort to integrate his past into his present and his future. There is no doubt that I pushed it. More than I knew I did. We got away with it. In fact, the result of Max’s day out with Rosa and her family has been that our family ties are stronger.


Photo by Noah Rosenfield on Unsplash



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